A wEiRd PeRsOn..A wEiRd FrIeNd..

Back to School

2007-06-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

its been so long.....AGAIN! hehe, back to school nanaman...
ive decided n mag-aaral n ako X_X ng mabuti...ive lazed around last yr..A LOT! its time for a change and ive already decided on becoming a doctor in the future, no matter what...even if i have to study for more than 15 yrs X_X (cardiologist and pedia sana :/ d p sure s cardio, makakatiis kaya ako?)
lately, ive been talking to vic more and more (whoever that person is that tagged me, haha...thanks? we've been a lot busy and she has honors at her school kya bc kaming dalawa X_X) sbi nya compare daw kami ng notes s school :)) lagi n cyang pumupunta s bahay namin ulit kagaya nung grade 3 p kami hanggang grade 6 :) and we have plans already for the future >.< :p hehe...sana nga talagang matuloy and mga "after college plans" namin :p
well,thats all for now....redecorate kami ulit ng kwarto s bahay X_X
see ya!

Summer Camp

2007-04-15T16:12:00.000+08:00

haha...im back from summer camp! :P
pero medyo magulo kc im in my sickness mode nung nagsummer camp ako...ngaun p ako nagkasakit with all the sorts X_X waaa..
we went to batangas nung holy week and bcuz late n ung sunday at mcyadong traffic s south express way,we had to go back...so late kmi for one day s summer camp..
dumating kmi ng shobe ko s summer camp on tuesday and everyone was surprised that we even turned up...well,rooms namin ready n...d ko kasama c sharlene...nasa roomA ako while she's on the last room down the hall, roomF..haha
i had 6 room buds (girls cyempre) and there was this kid who i thought was 6 or 7 yrs old...turns out to be 13 and its so embarassing cuz i hugged and squished her cuz she's so small :) hehe
so on the second day i missed out on the introductions n so i dont know much people there...c uncle joshua lang (the person that invited me) there was these teams and im on the Groovy Green team!!!(grroooovy)haha...c sharlene crazy caramel...there are boring blue,sumthing red and others...so its like a camp to meet new people and share the word of God...and dami kong natutunan dun...we sing praise songs from Hillsong...but the singers and the band are waaaaaaay better than them!!!hahaha...
we had games that afternoon...deal or no deal which led to icky stuff that we should it
examples:
pancit canton in mayo
pancit canton with bagoong
jelly ace in ketchup
biled egg in chili sauce
eat siling labuyo with royal
garlic shake on pepsi
fudgebar in mayo
carrot juice with mashed polvoron
etc etc...
u have to drink any leftover and it should be clean kundi minus points!
lam ko there are bout 15 of them and we had to eat it...buti d kami umabot s final round...the crazy caramel did (SHARLENE!!!)
wahahaha....they mixed everything up and let them eat it in 2 minutes..............kadiri.
we had a pastor talk and we had group discassions after songs of praise and we retire for the night :)
the next day we had to go to workshops we signed in for...natira kc s akin art attack at grooming(waaa...) grooming was hell cuz i dont want to learn how to DRESS....
sumakit ulo ko sobra at ung katawan ko ang sore...d ko alam kung bakit...and i have a nasty cough tapos sipon ng sipon...i had medicine and slept but continued on anyways...
hahaha....then ART ATTACK!!!we were taught of how to make paper(recycled) :) and there was these 2 people (sibs) n parang twins...Ethran and Graciel....they smile alike,they talk alike,they LOOK alike...they laugh alike,they even SOUND alike.....un pala mas bata c Ethran for 2 yrs...ka age nya c sharlene :) haha
there was an abortion film were babies are shown...the legs dismantled...blood comming out...i felt morbid....haha
then at night d ako maka2log....nangangati ako!i finally went to the cr mga 2am n...and namamaga ako...konti palang so i tried to push it back
tumayo ako ulit ung four at lumala so i called my mom on the phone...after 2 hrs trip they arrived...(nasa Tanay Rizal kami) so by then everyone was up and im already packed so i told my uncle which got him VERY surprised...lahat ng taong nagpass by titingnan ung mukha ko tapos ung maleta ko...malalayas daw b ako?hahaha...
they prayed for me....im so touched...sobrang raming nagtext s akin about this and that...bless here bless ther :) i feel so cared...haha
so we went to the hospital and i had an injection and the next day d p mcyadong ayos but i went back which was a surprise to everyone :)
so there were seminars n sobrang inspiring that day (by the way...everyday ung songs of praise and group discussions so its in between...sobrang fixed ung sched) and i ahd the most awaited counselor one on one talk and i went back to the main hall...
umupo ako s dulo...and parang nangangati ako ulit...its getting harder to breathe...
then two guys sat next to me kc walang maupuan...parang nakulangan ako ng oxygen so layo ako konti...pero parang offending X_X tapos pagtapos ng event s main hall...sumasakit n ung chest ko and mas namamaga n ako....i went to the doctor of the trip and he told me to take the other medicine again....uncle joshua was informed and ...took me home...waa...
but then,everyone was om with it so bye bye...
i talked and talked with uncle joshue dun s 2 hr trip...haha...ang dada ko!
the next day the allergies are almost gone and nung tangahali i felt bad....my head hurts and my body feels heavier....as the time passed by d ko n magalaw katawan ko at sobrang sakit ng ulo ko n umiiyak n ako....i felt miserable the whole day... X_X sbi ni daddy buti umuwi n ako...haha...buti nga...d ko toh kaya ihandle s camp....so lahat nangyari in a blur pero dami akong nakilala from grace..jubilee...and ica :) thanks unce joshua!!!hahaha...

Busy Busy Busy

2007-04-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

okay...so my father got me a job s accounting department namin and theres once again...RESPONSIBILITIES!!!haha...d nlng matapos tapos noh!
i have to read the whole book of the labor code so tepok ako X_X
my father said that its important to know the labor code in order to become a lawyer...eh im thinking of either being a lawyer or a doctor,layo noh?lalo n pag tamad kang tae n d nag-aaral (TAE) d bale,mag-aayos n ako nxt yr...i admit,sobra ang pagslack ko this yr..haha
5 days kmi s batanggas from tomorrow hanggang sunday...pag-uwi namin s sunday 2log agad kc gising maaga mga 5:45 dapat nasa bahay n kami ng shobe ko s uncle ko and we'll have a 6days 5nights stay on a retreat house of some sort meeting new people with my shobe (Sharlene) while reading the labor code...haha
then trabaho ulit tapos summer class s CHINESE!grabe...haha
well...nagpost n ako after a long long long time :) haha...

痛彻心扉 Tong Che Xin Fei by 张栋梁 Zhang Dong Liang

2007-03-28T20:36:00.000+08:00

回忆充满整个房子我们的住处
围困我笑也不会茶也不思
一个人恍恍又惚惚
相爱的国度里没有人居住

回忆混乱我的脚步阻碍了出路
证明了你的自私你的贪图
残忍的看着我无助
平淡的回应我虚假的无辜

痛彻心扉记忆的伤一寸一寸像你的冷酷
否定我这些日子以来的付出
不能睡的痛楚不知名的愤怒
不能上诉只能安静的痛哭

痛彻心扉记忆的伤一寸一寸像你的冷酷
告诉我不再需要有我来保护
不能睡的痛楚不知名的愤怒
不能上诉只能安静的痛哭

~~grabe...i love this song...haha :) (d ko lng maintindhan kung bkit X_X)

Friends :)

2007-02-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

haha,now its been so long and i dont know what exactly im gonna write so here i am going to talk about my friends istead..
the friend or former friend of mine,i talked to her!a little bit too much actually to be called "ignore".wow...i cnt bliv it,i vowed to stop talking to her unless necessary and still im talking to her!even to him,i am to ignore him and yet sometimes i tend not to X_X well anyways,maybe its because i miss them a little bit too much that i cnt help myself :(
im getting close to my dear "bst frnd" HERSHEY!!!
haha,i think..?
kc nung thursday we were alone and we talked for a whole hour about "stuff" that we dont know if its important or not :) haha but i still somehow feel a little bit more connected to her now :))
to abigail,its like we're fooling around endlesslywen we're together...even if shes sad most of the time bcuz of her mother's death.. i want to cheer her up,ewan ko lng kung pano nga talaga... :( but its like we can't not talk to each other,parang kung tumahimik lng ako ng konti theres this shadow that will cover her face and its gonna b hard to bring her back to the present wer all thats happened is the past... :( i love her,i really do..just like i love evrybody else...its just that i dont know how to help her...soothe her...i dont know...
to cindy,michelle,angela and daisy...it seems that our bond is not as strong as it was b4,naging shallow ata ung friendship namin...ewan ko...
but still,im gonna b happy with the present,there may come a time that i'l find new people and all that i hav now will b gone 4ever,so for now,i'l try and enjoy every last thing a minute can handle,every memory i can save..
this is high school,the most memorable time of a person's life.

random ramblings...

2006-12-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

its been so long since i last posted my blog...hmmm...dami n sobrang nangyayari,d ko n lam gagawin ko s buhay ko..
a friend, no actually, a lot of friends pointed out to me n la n akong ginagawang assignment, mga sinasubmit la n akong paki...parang ganun n ung nangyayari s akin...lagi nlng ako last minute..ewan ko...maybe the fact that i KNOW n ililipat n ako ng school nxt yr n nagpapatamad s akin...khit pnapaasa p ako ng papa ko n kung magsumikap p ako BAKA ndi ako ilipat...cheh,lam ko nmn kung gano k kagalit s school nmin..
and also...ung kay abby...d ko lam kung pano ko cya 22lungan...basta im trying to b ther 4 her...i've gotten sobrang close to her the very day that the "incident" happened...dming nangyari s araw n un..bday p nmn ni angela...dami ni abby naging prob s araw n un and then...gosh..
and also...our group often fights and i dont know what to do...its like we're gonna break appart sumday or another...im getting afraid of that...gosh..
then there...i have this problem w/ a friend...she seems oblivious that it seems n medyo d ko cya kinakausap..i dont know...i mean..im not worthy of our friendship so y continue...dhil s isang beses n un n may ginawa akong sobrang malaking kasalanan s kanya...gosh...
i mean...she told me a problem and it really got me...nlunod ako s problemang iyon...then i told sum1 about it,sum1 that i really trust...
then later wen they already met...parang..alam ko n...ssbhin ng taong un ung kasalanan ko and she wud get mad at me...
she took it lighter than i expect her to...but then,i feel that i dont hav the right to butt in to their friendship anymore...i dont hav the right to b their friend anymore...im a failure as a friend...sobra...
i hate myself...bkit kc pag d k m2lungan ang isang tao linulunod ko ung sarili ko s problea nla...i wish im not like this...pero ganun ako eh...gosh..
la naman akong mapagsbhan n2...i know i made a mistake and now im gonna pay for it...
i luv her so much...parang ayaw ko cyang btawan...pero may kasalanan ako eh,i dont hav a choice..right?
even though she still considers me as a friend...feeling ko talaga napipilitan lng cya eh...i dont wanna force myself upon her...it seems so wrong...bakit ko gagawin un?so...is it right that i leave her be?
it hurts really...i really want her to be my friend...pero wala na eh..i lost her already...
but im happy for her...she found a new friend that she could lean on...the friend that i used to trust so much,and used to trust me...
parang...i feel like okay lng s akin ngaun ung gnawa ko...no regrets..cuz if i hadnt told him anything i wont be able to help her...and i know that he can help her...so maybe i can leave them be...
wow...it feels so good to let these things out of my system w/ my gud 0l' bloggy..
::sigh:: and also i have this problem of how to deal with my family...nahihirapan n ako s knila....sana c sharlene nlng mas nauna pnanganak kaysa s akin...
cge...i'm gonna retire n...aral p ako s exams..

2006-11-20T00:00:00.000+08:00

ok...it may seem n sobra ko nang feel ung bday spirit...but really...parang bale wala kung compared s nung bata ako X_X
when i was young and someone greeted me happy bday,i'd feel all fluttery inside,like there are jiggling butterflies..pero ngaun..."happy bday" automatic sagot "thnx/thanku" and theres not much of a fluttering feeling..well,on a certain number of people oo...haha...those who i care the most ~~hershey,erika,angela,michelle,cindy,daisy,ahya mervs,ahya dom,debbie,kimly,victoria~~pero slight lang sobra...namimiss ko n ung feeling dati tuwing bday X_X ung excitement >.<
knina chat kmi nang konti ni riche of weirdness,here goes (but not exactly,just from what i've remembered)...
Riche:Hapi Bday!
Riche:I'm just saying this cuz u gave me food
Riche: :p hehe
Sharmaine: thnx
Sharmaine: haha
Sharmaine: :p
~~~that time,i was ordering Pizza Hut and i was on the phone with vic beside me so it was such a hassle ordering and typing while talking to this slutty Pizza person X_X......ad then,vic typed "die" then maya maya...she added "gago" but she really didnt send it.so it showed "die gago"...pagsara ko ng phone,i quickly pressed backspace but then nagslide kamay ko s enter(coughkatangahancough)so because of the one backspace..it sent "die gag"..then...
Sharmaine: die gag
Sharmaine: oops...sorry...naenter
Riche: ???
Sharmaine: vic and i was playing around and i was ordering pizza and i accidentally entered what she wrote for fooling around
Sharmaine: haha
Riche: no
Riche: i think u hav 2 personalities
Riche: haha
Sharmaine: NO!!!I was ordering pizza!!!PIZZA!!!
Riche: nah...i dont really care
Riche: i hate u
Riche: haha
Sharmaine: me too
Sharmaine: haha...
Sharmaine: jowk
Sharmaine: :p
~~ok...weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiird....haha

The Outreach and the Procession :)

2006-10-22T19:14:00.000+08:00

kninang umaga we had an outreach program kasama ung judenites,sccb,science club and of course,kmi!ang math club!kaso konti nga lng kmi X_X
about 60 kids were present there from prep school to 6th grade of those orphans and children that lack in material abundance (not like us...khit minsan isip ntin n kulang kulang ng gamit ung buhay ntin,kc ayaw ng parents natin this,ayaw ng parents ntin that...lagi nting nakakaligtaan n may mas nangangailangan pang mga tao at mga walang makain and such..well,its human nature,if u were born w/ a very convenient lifestyle,u wud always tend to be ignorant of the things happening around u :/)
we had games (coke drinking contest,pera o bayong,deal or no deal...etc..)
the funny thing about the pera o bayong questionaire that justin tan and i made was the question #4 ~~ilan ang asawa ni Frater Aries? A.3 B.2 C.0 D.1
and to tell u the truth,i know that i can fool the kids w/ letter D :p haha...7 out of 60 actually know that Frater Aries can NEVER marry... tsktsk...
it was fun really and we had the chance to have some new kids around at school :) i really love outreach projects...haha.. :p
i went home for a while and the balik school nung 2:00. We had a mass, and i was surely surprised when sum1 hugged me suddenly s likod..and theres KAIRA!!! :P saya kaya sobra..i never expected to see her but then,there she is,right in front of me..sorba ko n cyang miss.. :)) sobra ko talaga cyang namiss and i still cnt bliv im standing right in front of her back then :P
and then theres this DBMC assembly on the 5th floor w/ our respective instruments and there we march :p
ang masaya s procession ung dance troup bgind us :p hte day b4 kc we had a practice 2gether for their "dance" ..ad they were really embarassed by everything that they did :p haha..ang gulo kc naming mga DBMC kaya cla kumakanta n rin para bumagal daw ung beat ng music..
so after the procession we went to the third floor and ate some yum burgers and drank softdrinks and stuff..
after that,i had to make up a little for mommy kaira dahil sobra sobra sobra ko n cyang namiss :)) and finally,hatid cya papunta car and the farewell..:((
PS:o yan hersh..nag-update n ako!!! :p

What a Day...?

2006-09-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

it all started when i woke up...ok...its 8:30!!!shit...nagwawala n ako,here and there...y'know..stuff..
nakarating ako s school nung 9:00 (naligo po ako at nag-ayos ng mga necessary stuff!) to suddenly realize that D KO NASUOT CONTACTS KO N NASA BAHAY PA!!!ok...so nung nasa school n ako..i saw angela and we went to my house together in a 5 minute walk (bagal kc angela eh..tsk tsk :p cguro 2-3 minutes dapat nasa bahay n ako..mabilis po ako maglakad! :p)
i got my contacts and went to school again ng nakakotse (yey!)
so nakarating kmi s school mga 9:10 n...pano p kaya ako magdDBMC?well,hahabol sana ako..kung d lang ako hinila ni angela n gawin nalang ung project nya (i feel so bad..i think i over-exerted myself on other people's projects not doing my own kc d ako nabigyan ng tsansa n magbgay ng ideas s sarili naming group project..and they said my ideas r ok..but i feel like they want to do something of their own choice s sarili nlang project...but then,they keep asking suggestions and i give them the suggestions..it just makes me feel bad...am i doing the right thing?)
so then, we started doing their projects...haha...i was having fun and they're bored (X_X saya kaya!) up until dumating c hershey and we played a very wittle bit of badminton and then she went home...
tapos 2loy ako gawa project ni angela..then kristine came and angela left kc may appointment p cya s doctor...then dumating din c michelle tapos umalis cla at iniwan ako mag-isa n gumawa ng project nla nang pumunta cla s mcdo (yey!may chicken nuggets ako!!!) then umalis c michelle and kristine and her sis kasama ako,gumawa ng project (ang gulo ko noh)
then nung 3:00..bumaba n kmi preparing to leave.....but then...
i saw nathan getting bored...we palyed badminton..pnapatakbo ako ni nathan pero ayaw ko tumakbo..but i cant tell him n (nagkaroon ako bigla ng period then and there!buti may suot ako!shh..i cnt tell him that can i?)..tapos dumating c ahya earvin!!!haha...naglaro pala cla ms. aguilar!!!so nung umalis cya after ilang minutes...sbi nya maglaro daw kami nina nathan kay ms aguilar s badminton court!!! (yey!may court n kaming magagamit!!! :p)
but then,inimbita p ni aguilar c ms. traje...so we went on doubles without score..
but then,d ako macyadong makatakbo cuz i pulled a muscle s right foot ko and sumakit tiyan ko (remember..monthly cycle..) but then,nathan doesnt care...tumakbo daw ako or i wont win the tournament s next sunday ( :(( )
well...mamaya napagod c nathan kaya humiga cya bgla s sahig ng court so i was left fighting ms aguilar and ms traje..kaso napagod ako agad (ahem..baka magkaashtma ako!!!d ko dala ung inhaler!!! :(( )
so then mamaya there's tigil cya ako laro...tigil ako cya laro...y'know..stuff
then,mamaya...i was singles w/ ms traje...haha..la lng..
i tried not moving from my spot kc...as in every shot nya nandun ung isang paa ko s gitna..as in parang ayaw ko umurong..so it means im glued to my place..s center,while being able to hit all her shots (insulto) i think she was trying to make me run away from my spot s gitna but to no avail parang wala parin...i want to limit my running kc mabilis ako mapagod.. ( and daya :(( )
nasa gitna ako then she hit s medyo likod ko,so i took 1 step back and hit it,then i returned to my position again...then she hit left and i placed my right foot to the left living my left foot on the same spot then nung nahit ko n,bumalik ako s usual place ulit..then if she hit right i'l stretch my right hand and hit the ball...then pag medyo drop i'l lean down and hit...
it was kind of ok doing it to not so hard playing playerskaysa s mga mabilis at malakas magpalo n players (examples: hershey,ahya mervs,ahya earvin,nathan,egbert,...)
i think she was insulted AND pissed that she went on hitting EVERYTHING out... ( :(( nu b yan?!?!?) so she made me run dun s mga spot n out (nathan said that if im playing w/ a teacher,hit ko parin kahit medyo out,kc maooffend daw cla pag cnb kong out cla just to be able to tell them that they failed to make their shots in for the slightest bit of inches...)
well...that was the end for me knowing that theres no counting in our game and d ako pwede mag-out at pwede cya...so umalis n ako s spot ko and run to catch all her outs ( :(( ::whimper::)
so then mamaya napagod n ako then it rained HARD!!!
d ako makauwi so i called 2 times and naghintay ako s labas ng church to find shade from the rain...daming tao...
then there was where i was touched sobra...
ung mga tao..kahit umuulan ng malakas..nasa labas ng church nagsisiksikan parin n nakapayong habang nagdarasal for the sake of being able to attend the holy mass...wow...im so touched...mga iba nababasa p kc wala clang payong pero ok lang s kanila...they were so serious that they were praying and singing mass songs in the rain...wow...ang swerte naman ni Lord! (Lord!next time mapapatunayan ko rin sau n ung pananalampalataya ko sau hanggang kamatayan!!!bumagyo man o umaraw,masaktan man ako o mamatay,iaalay ko ang aking sarili sau!luv u Lord!!! :) )
haha...sakit ng katawan ko :((
looooong day...haha

badminton :) :(

2006-07-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

okay,now i really regret going to the tryouts kanina...although i dont expect that i wud even get chosen,i attended for the sake of being able to play for fun...nakaplano n naman kc n pupunta cla michelle and hershey eh...pero d naman cla pumunta kc c mich,la daw s mood..c hersh daw tnatamad n bumalik p s school...
well,nandyan naman c sharlene eh,nandyan din cla gelvin,belinda...haha..kala ko naman may makakasama ako...
the thing i hate most is being alone,ung feeling mo out of place ka...
haha...nag-iingay nalang ako kanina...naghahanap ng makakausap...(wala namang makausap..as if anyone would bother talking to me except hersh and mich in the badminton court..[kung nandyang lang sana cla...])
i was just roaming around kanina,c sharlene kasama c lizelle so i cnt have her companionship..c gelvin,hmm..may i say n he is with me,but at the same time,not really with me..haha...well,c belinda she has her own set of friends...
then ako,ako n sanay n laging may kasama ay naiwan s kgilid giliran..haha...
well...d ako sanay eh,so i felt sad kanina n wala cla hersh or mich.. :((
hmm..at first...i thought it was just ok kahit wala cla nila hershey..but then,mamaya...dahan dahan akong nalungkot kc la akong makasama,makausap..im weird really...
pramis talaga..never n akong pupunta s isang event kung wala cla hershey,mich,daisy,angela,or cindy...at least naman may makakausap ako dba?haha..la lng..
although badminton was fun :) i'd rather stay home nalang pala...sowee sharleeeene...hehe
::sigh::
hay bahala nanga...its just me,nothing serious...

time flies by too fast, but i now learned some lessons in life in such a short period of time :)

2006-07-05T20:27:00.001+08:00

Last year..I can say that life for me is really disturbing...well,kaklase ko c Jonathan Kingsu eh..haha
Well,last yr..nalipat ako s secion A, HS 1A
d ko naging kaklase c hershey,she was in 1D and I'm glad that she was doing fine...pero ako,I dont know anyone in my class..u could say that i was begining to meet new people..
the first person to say "Hi." to me was Stephanie Uy,well..i thought she was nice but a little maarte..haha
then,life was kinda good at first,up until I continued my ritual of reciting and trying to be a good student..
haha..unfortunately..kaklase ko c Jonathan Kingsu..well,first...parang nainis ata s akin...then mamaya spreading rumors and saying things about me being a "bitch" "slut" "kala mo kung cno" "whore" haha....lahat n ata natawag nila s akin... :) well..cnt blame them...
the whole class hated me,if I dare say,the whole batch may as well hate me too...
haha,kakausapin ko mga tao ok lang,nang nasabi ko ang pangalan ko they'l go...
then Patricia Chuateco,our secretary,quit bcuz of her "assignments" daw...mcyado daw madami...d daw nya kaya maging officer...then I bcame the class secretary and Batch Tech Co...I refused the offer but Miss Palas was in "I dont hear u" mode...
well,then there my so called friends left me and I thought hersh would too...haha..gud thing nga lang hindi :)
that time too,a lot became outcasts..maraming friends ang nagbabackstab s isa't isa...popularity is all that matters para s lahat doon...and a lot of us too are the ones that are "anti-popularity" haha...maraming mga grupo ng mga magkakaibigan ang nagkakawatak-watak..maraming mga napunta s banda ng kasamaan kaysa s mas tama...lahat n nangyari...haha...so that was our first yr...

well..this year.. :) its fine now... HS 2B ako ngaun! haha...although kaklase ni hershey ngaun cla kingsu...it seems like he's not much of one to bully hersh :) thank God...
our class is separated into 2,the boys side and the girls side...my classmates now,most of them are my friends..the friends that i collected the time I was hated in 1st yr :)
the girl's side of our class were nice,and the boys are nice too,although they were way too loud...haha
now,they were actually smilling at me instead of staring at me like im trash... ( i remember last year,people refer to me as "ung basura oh!")
haha...dati kilala ako s class as the "bitch"
ngaun,kilala ako as "the lunatic tuwing may oral tests" haha....(i wanna audition for the drama guild...pero...AYAW NI DADDY!!! :(( )
at least ms pacleb and miss ardiente already knows my name :D
well,life is getting better and better now :) i can now bully mr federico sandoval >:) (he said i was being mean) (erika is always teasing me with feds!!! :(( )
haha...may grupo n kami!
Angela, Michelle, Herschelle, Daisy, Cindy and me! :p well,its good now...because i know that i have my friends to lean on when i fall (not literally!) haha...may reassurance and i fell safe when im with them..of courz! i luv them! haha..and im trusting them now more and more! (last yr...i cnt trust any of my so called "friends" anymore... :(( (well,i have vic..hersh..ahya mervs..tapos lahat n ng "friends" ko iniwanan ako...d ko p cla ni angela nakikilala nun eh...)
hersh was always defending me back then againts those "people" ( haha..luv ya hersh!) i never saw her that way b4 until she did..and i realized now that,i seem to be more attached to hershey than i am to vic...when im with vic...i dont feel our bond anymore than we used to b back then...para cyang nawala s buhay ko n d ko n cya maaccept ulit..dahil hindi kaya..
hersh was brave to go against "them" (then again,luv ya hersh! :D) and i tried to b strong enough against them too!well,nothing will happen to me if I dont fight back,i should learn to know how to fight against them,and of course having someone to lean on... (kung wala ka hersh,cguro d ko n nakayanan ung first year...i lab uuuuuu!!! friends 4ever ah!) its really strange how God planned things to work out in life...its like a very difficult math question that only complicated people can learn to solve...and thats life...
thats all i can say after a very long time of not posting :) haha...i just need to get things out of my system :) luv u ulit hersh! luv u too angela,mich,daisy,and cindy.... :)

Crazy Insomniac

2006-04-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

haha..im such a crazy insomniac these days..22log ng 4-5 ng umaga at pumapatay ng ipis s midnight imbis n m2log...haha..
its been going on for 4 days n..hihiga s kama g mga 3-4..papatay ng mga ipis (mind u,squashed cockroaches smell like vegetable n may hinalong amoy ng kanal at putik [matapag ung amoy ng gulay..sobra!]) haha...dami kong pnapatay at d ako maka2log s sobrang inis s mga ipis...(fav spot s pagtatapon,upper left corner) haha...but yesterday was different,i decided to go 2 bed at 5am but fell asleep at 7am instead!!!im such a crazy insomniac dba???
may nagtratrabaho n s inventory s baba gsing pa ako!haha...
so all in all,i had 4hrs of sleep...(come to think of it,i always sleep 3-4 hrs s school days...ad 5-6 hrs s summer..weird noh!tsk tsk...)
::yawn::
haha...

Do I really have a talent?

2006-03-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

Do I really have a talent? tanung ko un lagi s sarili ko...
my sis is always agry with me because i seem to b better than her in a lot of things...she told me magaling daw akong magdrawing,kumanta,magluto,magdesign..i can go on and on..
pero,d naman talaga eh...
magaling DAW akong magdrawing,wadaheck?!?so what if the things i copy/draw are fairly nice..its not really that much of a talent..well,if i compare myself to Kevin Ang,or even Andrean..im nothing...well,i mean..just a wee bit..but still not enough..
kumanta...WTF?!?ako???well,i admit that i am not THAT bad like some people..pero i admit din n d ako magaling kumanta...sira sira kaya boses ko!as told to me by hershey and johann (thnx for being honest you 2!para talaga kaung magkapatid!hehe..)
magluto...ako?magaling magluto???well,sharlene..all u have to do is follow the instructions carefully and there!!!
magdesign...AKO?!?!o shut it..bulok ako dyan..
i admit n mas above ako minsan s mga tao in some aspects..but im not talented..
i wanna find my talent..
i wanna find my REAL talent..
gus2 kong magaling sobra s iisang bagay...kagaya ni Kevin,magaling cya sobrang magdrawing,khit d cya mcyadong magaling s ibang bagay..c Paul Ong,magaling sobrang kumanta..pero d naman ata ganun kagaling s ibang bagay...
i wanna find something that i can concentrate on..only a thing n bubuhusin ko ang lahat ng aking oras..isang bagay n pagpapaguran ko..isang bagay n magagamit ko to become the best...
pero......wala eh... :(

Stupid Morning

2006-03-23T10:05:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaa...d ako nakapasok ngaun!!!waaa...shit shit shit...
kaninang umaga when i woke up may nkita nlng akong 3 tao,pagbukas ng mga mata ko,there was hershey waving at me saying "hi",then angelita asking for the CDs i borrowed,and also cindy texting...first thing that came to my mind;WTF!!!
ok,bakit ako hindi nagising???i mean..i just went to close my eyes for an hr b4 going to school!!!it was like,5 when i slomped on my bed..then sinet ko ang alarm s 6!!!i was resting my eyes and i dozed off!!!not a gud sign...waaaaaa...
it was the moment the clock chose to lose the batteries!!!d nag-alarm...and now its already 10am...shit...im so dead...waaaaaa...
2 n ung absents ko s DBMC!!!naku...d n ako makaka90!!!shit...putik!waaaaaaaaa...
i now suddenly wish that nkinig ako kay ahya mervs nung 2:30 in the morning n "M2LOG K N!" text message...waaaa...naku...sana pala n2log nlng ako imbis n magbake ng cookies...waaaaaaa...i cant bliv myself...
then ung aalis n cla hershey...she gave me sumthing on a plastic..haha...d ko lam kung ano...then i of course said thank u! :) but then ung nkita ko ung bnigay nya..i regretted saying thank u only...i was even ready to run after her to the streets in pajamas and kiss her feet!!!haha...wow...thanx hersh...i was staring at it for 5 minutes bago ako nkabalik s mundong ito!!!i swear,its the best!!!haha...it seems that everyone knows that ADDICT AKO SA NARUTO!!!and that little thing u gave me could last a life time!!!wow hersh....THANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKUTHANKU!!!!!!!!

weird

2006-03-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

i know im weird,heck,my whole family is weird...
abno talaga ako...
haaay...d ko minsan maintindhan ung pamilya ko...
c daddy kala mo serious n mamaya d pala n d mo maiintindhan,sobra naman s pagsususpetsa ng tao...
c mommy,she is such a child...para cyang dumb blonde(but isnt blonde) ::sigh::
c ahya,retain ng retain...first yr kagaya ko...mas musmos p ang ugali nya kaysa s 6 yrs old kong kapatid...
ako,u know im weird ryt?
c sharlene,she thinks that every human living here in this horrid world is just a piece of flesh and its life wud b taken away soon after and then life goes on...people r just living organisms...
c stephanie,sobrang kikay n d naliligo(???)and sobrang sipsip,pacute... ::sigh::
c sophia...everytime we go to a gas station,oopen nya ung bintana at sisigaw cya ng "FLYING IPIS!!!"then close the window... :/
c shara...she is weird in her own way that no one will ever understand...
all in all,i live in a verrrry weird family... ::sigh::
P.S. pnapabayaan kaming magwala s mga restaurants...(???)like hell!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
sumtimes...i hate my sister,sharlene...sobra nyang judgemental...
she calls me self conscious...self conscious ba ang naliligo at least once a day...self conscious ba ang ayaw magsuot ng PAJAMAS papunta s mall?self conscious ba ang naghuhugas ng mukha?self conscious ba ang nagsasabon tuwing naliligo?self conscious ba ang taong ikinahihiya ang mga kamag-anak n nagwawala s restaurant like they own the place and has the right to scare away the costumers?hindi naman dba?comment please.i have a weird family...
she told me that i dont care about her... ::sigh:: cnung kapatid ang d ipanghahalaga ang kanyang sib?ha?tsk tsk...
the most that i hate about her,sinusumbong nya ako s parents namin bcuz of that...so now my father thinks im bcoming a girl now!(NOT!!!)tsk tsk...i hate her,yet i love her...she's my sis!!!...

Realizations

2006-02-24T07:17:00.000+08:00

ang dami kong narerealize these past few days simula ng cnb ni daddy nung tuesday n LILIPAT NA AKO NG SCHOOL...
walang pasok ngayon and sum1 texted me n wala kundi pumasok n ako...the one that txted me was my least expected friend to text me that (sowee ahya) pero nonetheless,he texted everyone n walang pasok (yey!no classes) thanx ahya doms...khit minsan medyo naiinis ako s medyo pagka'confident' mo w/ sumthing that i hate (yokonga sbhin kung ano un,baka magalit k p...no offense ah!) at minsan medyo may pagkabakla p (seriously,d k nga bakla...but then,i still kept thinking that u r for sum reason...nsanay n ata ako s kakaconcder syo n bakla...soweeee...) he is a VERY reliable person i can say...at all times lagi...ang responcble n2...haha
and i also realized how much i lean on my ahyas and atsis...ahya doms,ahya mervs,ahya earvs,ahya paul,minsan kay andrean,atsi tiffany,atsi or "mommy" kaira,sumtimes kay queenyy...and other atsis and ahyas pa...and also to my best frnd hershey and close frnds like angela and michelle...i luv each and everyone of u!
and i will cherish each and every moment that i will have there in SJCS bago pa matapos ng school year na ito... :) i love u everyone...
kahit ayaw ko pang umalis s SJCS,i can still visit pa nmn every saturday eh...d bale...bday ni herschelle,ahya mervs,and queenyy SATURDAY!!!yey!makakapunta ako!!!weeee...lab u all... :((

2006-02-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

lilipat n ako ng school...sadly
well, kailangan eh...
la rin akong magagawa...
bawal namang umangal...
:(
ayaw ko nga
but i dont have a choice...
d bale
visit nlng me s SJCS every saturday

ADVANTAGES:
1. A new life.
i can start a new beginning there...make new frnds...uhmm...start off with a new reputation...everything!
2. Easier life.
mas konting aaralin...bulok SSHS eh...sobrang konting assignment...
3. A new goal.
s SSHS,sobrang ec ng life, and if i put a little effort on studying,magkakahonor naman ata ako...i mean,c adrian n close frnd ko lst yr,lumipat cya s SSHS...eh bagsak cya s almost lahat ng subjects nmin...7 or 9 i think...tapos s SSHS,top of the class,honor student,first section!now that is sumthing...
4. New friends.
i get 2 meet new people...new friends...
5. Studies
ang gagaling mag2ro ng tchers dun,dati kc nagsusunday school kmi dun,parang mass for kids...ang galing ng mga tchers nmin dun...astiggggg...lahat pa influential...in God they trust...they have faith in Him...i wud b a better person...

DISADVANTAGES:
1. im loyal to SJCS,i dont wanna leave!!!
2. i dont wanna leave my friends!!!
3. SJCS is WAY better than SSHS ::humph::
4. i want challenge
5. its hard to make new friends :(
6. i dont wanna leave hershey,una c angela,cindy,michelle,and now ako?la n cyang mkakasamang close s kanya...
7. i wanna finish in SJCS,gus2 ko makaabot s third and fourth year d2 s SJ kc sobrang CHALLENGING!!!
8. my house is VERY near s SJ, e kung dun s SSHS,ede mas maaga p ung gising...
9. baka d ako maaccept ng mga taga SSHS
10. i cant help but look down on students there,sobrang lowlives tingin ko s knila,no offense
11. bad influence cla sobra,a boy and a girl there not even close KISS,even though s cheeks lang,and they HUG each other and POKE each other in some parts,boys even have the privilage to LIFT GIRL"S SKIRTS in there,thats wat i witnessed...
12. im a conservative person,i am SO not like them

well there u have it...pero sbi ni daddy,s st stephen,papayagan n raw nya akong sumali s maraming extra curricular activities...s SJ,nung nlamn nla n nagpupuyat ako dahil s kakagawa ng SAMS reviewer dati (kc late n late n talaga bago cnsb ni mommy kai n gumawa ng reviewer and i have to give it b4 the deadline ::sighs::) they want me to quit SAMS,nagmakaawa nga lng ako eh... :( s SSHS,pwede akong sumali s lahat ng clubs,lahat ng sports...volleyball(22ruan nmn ako eh),swimming(competitive kaya ako s swimming doon s torpedoes n pnaglalanguyan ng green mariners varsity,i just dont wanna join the varsity cuz i dont wanna swim every wednesday and saturday,and sometimes also sunday to waste my time.i'd rather sleep...at ayaw kong maging negra noh!),basketball(sana payagan ako ni daddy),and others...but still,i'll miss my school...
anyways...bye n nga ako...baka maiyak p ako eh...

Weird Day....

2006-02-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

today was full of events for sum reason...nung umaga palang i have that feeling na...
firstly,nakalimutan kong gisingin ung dad ko ng 6:00,instead,i woke him up at 6:30...well,he had a meeting w/ a general kaya nagalit cya s akin... :(( i was pnagalitan for the first time...nasigawan ako and i felt miserable...well,pnatawad nmn ako this night w/out me saying anything...ehe
uhmm..half day ngayon,cuz 2day is the JS promenade,so buong HS half day...c hershey,cindy,angela and michelle...pumunta cla s mall (ang daya) i wish i cud come,pero bawal eh...never naman ako papayagan,my father wud never allow me 2 go 2 the mall w/ my friends...ever...unang una,sayang daw s oras,pangalawa,its dangerous,pangatlo,wats the point of going out w/ them if i cud go w/ the family 2 the mall....well,i wanna have fun...ngayon,may picture clang apat n magkasama,remembrance nla para best friends forever... :( at d ako kasama,kc wala naman daw kwenta sabi ng papa ko...hey,its sentimental too y'know?at nagagalit p cla angela s akin kc ayaw ko daw sumama...bliv me,i wanna come,kaso lang papagalitan nnman ako kung nagsabi ako na "daddy,pwede kmi pumunta s mall bukas?please daddy...para remembrance for the first time...cge na...kukuha pa daw kmi ng picture at bbli ng ilang mga gamit.." well,that'll never work...sbi nya may camera daw kmi s bahay...pabili nlng daw ako kay mommy ng mga bbilhin kong gamit :( cguro the first time that i can hang out w/ my friends wud b wen im already 30+ years old..or maybe 40... :( and that is NOT an exageration...never akong magiging grown up s paningin nya,kaya never ko maeexperience ung mga naeexperience ng mga teens my age these days.. :( sumtimes i wish that i cud just b born in another family...lahat kc ng gagawin ko bawal eh... :(
well...kanina nung nagmumukmok ako s bahay,nanood nlng ako ng tv,tapos..naka2log ako...mga 2:00 hanggan 3:00..nagising ako dahil dumating cla hershey s bahay ko!im touched..hehe :) i wablu!!!wablu wablu wablu!!!(labya)hehe...they woke me up,haha...kakahiya nmn un,i fell asleep on the sofa and woke up seeing my friends there thinking that it was a dream...hehe...sabog pa mukha ko nun,as in!my hair sticking out in all directions,wearing a very thin shirt that u can almost see my bra...(ooopsies)without even noticing a thing...hehe
so we walked to school and chatted about nonsense crap..tapos nung 4 umuwi n kmi...haha
pag-uwi s bahay...na2log nnman ako,2 b woken up by sumthing very disturbing...galit n galit talaga ako kay sophia nun!!!grrrrr....cnu b d magagalit kung na22log k ng mahimbing tapos nagising k kc NATAPUNAN KA NG TUBIG!!!i was soaking wet and shouted my head off...nagwala ako s buong bahay kanina...well,dont anger me in my sleep..
un lang ata nangyari ngayon eh...haha.cge alis n ako,byebye!!!

:( sad...depressed?wadahek...

2006-02-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

shux...daming nangyayari...time flies by so fast...
angela...maybe ahya mervs really isnt the one best suited for u..ok..ttgil n ako...maghahanap nlng ako ng iba..cge...hehe...humanda kayong mga singkit!weeee... -_-
herschelle...y cant u see that that richmond guy is head over heels for ya!i know..u can see it..hehe...u just wont admit it...dont worry,i can see n mabait nmn yang lalaking iyan sayo..he'll take care of ya..wag lng sana dumating ang oras n mag-iba n ang pagtingin nya sayo...im happy for ya...though im a little jealous...d ako jelly sayo,kay richmond ako jelly!!!i wont let him take ya away from me!akin ka!!!jowks...hehe..i just wish that u'd return his feelings well enough.. :)
nsb ko n kay angela at michelle ung problema ko!so 3 n clang may alam nla ahya mervs..tsk tsk tsk...sana d magkalat... :(
c angela at c michelle...kakakilala ko lng s kanila...but really...i dont know y im so bilis n maging attached s mga tao...kay hershey,la pang 1 month close frnds n kmi nun...kay robin din!tapos kay mommy kaira and ahya mervs..tapos kay ahya earvs and atsi tiffs..erika..judd...kahit kay arthur,jules at jan clement!hehe..angela..michelle...ang dami...they really make me feel n may kaibigan parin ako kahit maraming nang-iwan n s akin...and im happy..thanks s inyo a!
i was touched w/ wat angela said s canteen kahapon ung nagstay kmi...sabi nya..kahit kakakilala palang daw nmin..d nya alam kug bkit closely attached n daw cya s amin...magkatropa kming apat ngayon ni michelle,angela,hersh,and me!for sum reason,parang sobrang close ko ngayon s kanila..since they came,hershey bcame mas mabait to me!!!hehe..she opens up a bit na!c angela..naku..puro lalaki nlng n -_- singkit ang pnag-uusapan...hehe..c michelle..she is so kawaii!!!ang cute nya!hehe...lalo n c hersh!sabi ni angela,s lahat ng mga naging kaibigan nya,s lahat ng mga naging kasama nya..mga kabarkada nya...kmi lng daw ni hershey at michelle ung pnakaayaw nyang mabitawan..sobra daw kc kaming maunawain s kanya and we almost share the same thoughts about people..(except boys!thats a no no for me!)
if ur gonna ask me...im naweiweirdohan kina hersh,michelle,and angela minsan...kakain kmi ng lunch s canteen,bago p pumasok s canteen,mag-uumpisa cla s mga tawanan ng mga parang may sayad..and mostly,the topic is..........boys...yeah...nakatingin n s kanila mga tao,wala parin clang pakialam...the thing i'd do 2 make them stop is say.."ANG WEIRD NYO!"then poof..silence...but then...uumpisa cla ulit hanggang matapos ang lunch..haay naku..
tungkol kay bernie...bahala na...i cant control her life...i cant control anyone's life!so...ayaw ko nang makialam s kanyang problema kugn ayaw nyang makinig...its all gonna be moving the way she wants it to be...if she really can do wat she thinks she wants to do..haaaay...y dont she just smile...smile at kingsu...smile at veronica...smile to georgia...not to say n kakayanin ko kayo...just to say na..i dont care...im not pitiful..im strong...d mo ako kakayanin...d mo ako matatalo...she doesnt know n she provokes him even more...all kingsu wants is to make her life miserable..kagaya dati s akin...he wants to make me feel miserable...pero d nya kaya..haha...malakas ako pare!d nyo ako kaya!i smile at him and go w/ the flow..and everythings gonna b alright...thats it..
ang dami ko nang cnulat...hay...cge...ang haba na ng post ko...ok..alis n me..bye!

2006-01-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

ang raming nangyayari these days.....waaaaaaaaaaaaa.........im so confused!!!arrrgggghhh....buti d n ganun kagrabe c kingsu kay bernie..oks n un...kaso ung mga iba nmn ung ginagago nya!grrrr...PUTANGINA!ok lng kung s akin,wag lng s kanila!grrrr....
now 1 knows my problem that causes my insomnia...ssshhh..u know who u r n pnagsbhan ko,at pnagkatwalaan kta dyan!wag mo ipagkakalat!u know who u r!hehe...
angela!!!wag k nga magalit kay ahya mervs!la nmn talaga cyang ginawang masama eh!waaa...i want u to lyk him again!ilang beses ko n pinepraise ung pangalan nya sayo e!bkit ayaw mo parin s kanya!!!grrrrr...i want u 2 lyk him again!wag k n kay glenn and sherwyn!kay kuya k nlng!hahahha...
raming gagawin...im so tnatamad...m confused on how life goes sumtyms...i understand how people feel...naiintindhan ko ang bawat nararamdaman ng tao for some reason...the problem is,i dont react very well...hahaha...sowweee ah s mga taong nabiktima s mga kcraan ng utak ko!may sayad ako eh!haha..

PUTANGINA!!!

2006-01-08T14:55:00.000+08:00

PUTANGINA MO KINGSU!!!PUTANGINA NYONG MGA COC NG 1ST YEAR!!!KALA NYO KUNG CNO KAYO!!!THE HELL!!!PUTANGINA MO U FUCKIN' FAGGOT!!!S TINGIN KO,WALANG TATANGGAP SAYO S KABILANG BUHAY PAG NAPATAY N KITA!!!NEVER K TATANGGAPIN NI GOD AT D K NMN TATANGGAPIN NI SATHAN!KC MAS MASAHOL K P S KANYA!PUTANGINA MO!U DONT HAV THE RIGHT TO MALTREAT PEOPLE!KALA MO KUNG CNO KA?!?HAH?!?ANG KAPAL NG PAGMUMUKHA MO!!!NANG-IINSULTO K P NG MGA PAGMUMUKHA NG MGA KAIBIGAN KO!ANG KAPAL!!!KALA MO MAY IBA NMN S MUKHA MO N MAGUGUS2HAN NG MGA TAO!!!MAY BAD REPUTATION K N S MGA TCHERS,MAY BAD REPUTATION K N S BUONG BATCH,MAY BAD REPUTATION K N S BUONG HIGH SCHOOL,S BUONG SCHOOL MAN...KALA MO GUS2 K NG LAHAT NG TAO!!!ANG KAPAL!!!MAY GANA K PANG TANUNGIN ANG MGA SIPSIP MONG MGA KAIBIGAN N BACKSTABBERS DIN KUNG MABUTI K BANG TAO!AND U KNOW WAT THE FUCK THEY SAY?!?THEY SAY UR THE BEST!THEY TREAT U LIKE THE ALMIGHTY SAVIOR UP THERE IN HEAVEN!!!PUTANGINA NILA!PUTANGINA MO!NAMBABASTOS P NG PANGALAN NI GOD?!?ANO KAYO?!?HAH?!?GOD MADE U!!!HE CAN TAKE U ANYTIME AND LOCK U SUMWHERE WHERE THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS POPULARITY!!!SOCIALITY SUCKS!!!SSBIHIN MO,ANG RAMI RAMI MONG MGA KAIBIGAN!PERO PAG MAGKAROON K MAN NG PROBLEMA,WALANG TUTULONG SAYO!NADA!WALA!!!KC MASAMA KANG TAO!!!NAGIGING SIPSIP SAYO AND MGA ALALAY MO FOR POPULARITY!THEY'RE NOT UR FRIENDS!!!THEY R JUST AFTER THE SOCIAL STATUS THAT U HAV U FUCKIN' FAGGOT!PUTANGINA MO!KAWAWA NMN ANG MGA KALULUWA N SINASAGASAAN MO JUST FOR POPULARITY!MAHIYA K NMN S KABAKLAAN MO!PUTANGINA!MARINIG KO LNG BOSES MO MAKAKAPATAY N AKO EH!PUTANGINA MO!!!UR A FREAGIN' %@$#&%^$^&$*%^$%#%^@(?>?"{p+)*%^#@@?:?{+^#$#&&)&&_)*(_&*(_&*(^&#(&*#$@+_)_(>":"{}{}_+)*(^*&$%@$)*))_{{}"">:<:{{+($!@*_+{}><> >?":{} SON OF A BITCH!PUTANGINA!!!
masisira n ung keyboard...i'l stop for now...

Very Long Post

2005-12-29T18:31:00.001+08:00

Its been such a long time since last time n nagpost ako..haha...d bale..mahaba ipopost ko ngayon!!!weee...sulat ko nalang mga dates s baba.. (sana maalala ko ung mga dates)

Dec.20,2005 "Sportsfest"
Kanina pinapunta kmi ni Philip dun s school..(as batch officers..kelangan daw.. :( ) but still..i had fun!haha..badminton din kanina..dinala ko racquet ko cyempre...para makalaro kahit d ako kasali s badminton...Jessa and Lareina didnt give much of a gud fight..i can tell...well..dapat kasi pumunta n c hersh e..khit ginawa lng cya ni audz n substitute.. :( daya nmn kc e..nung tryouts s badminton s sportsfest,isa lng daw kukunin ni audz s mga babae..ok nga n c hershey nakuha nya..kaso ginawa nyang sub?!?ibang klase..kaya tinamad n c hershey and d n cya pumunta :( but anyways..i had fun nmn e..haha..kc i had a chance to meet new people..i met a second yr,ung kaharap ko s testing area..haha..kasali cya du e..kaso nung naglaro daw cya,0 nakuha nya kaya cnicc cya lagi..so tinatamad n din daw cyang maglaro..well..nakaupo lng cya at la magawa..i kept her company! XD ako pa!haha..i invited her to play and stuff..like chess..tapos we got bored so naglaro nlng kmi ng badminton..then nalaman nya n may game cya susunod..haha..she thought she will have 0 again..u know wat i did?i cheered as she played..haha..as in sigaw sigaw!!!kaya mo yan!!!ganun..haha...after the game..she had a few points..yeah..but then pinasalamatan nya ako(???)she said cguro magiging 0 daw ulit ung score nya if i hadnt cheered for her..kc daw nung kala nya n wala nang pag-asa..i told her n its ok..at wag cya mabababaan ng loob kc isang puntos lng un!haha..she fought with her everything..habang nasa laro panga i tried to teach her some tactics..(parang ung ginagawa ni ahya mervs,pupunta nlng s tainga mo at ssbhan k ng mga tactics..)haha..i was glad that nakascore cya..and i was glad to help..it was such a tiring day..sobra..pero oki nmn..haha

Dec.23,2005 "She left"
Sadly..umalis n c vic..but still..LIFE MUST GO ON!!!haha...d bale..i recorded her smiles s cell ko nmn e..so i can look at her anytime i want..haha..(cra n talaga ulo ko noh!)

Dec.25,2005 (am palang un a..mga 1:00am..haha) "Merry Christmas!!!"
Its christmas s wakas!!!haha...oks n 'tong araw n 'to!we prepared food for the lonely soldiers in malacanang para mabigyan cla ng pamasko!that was tiring..but fun nmn!so its okish..hehehe... :) i had 25 gifts..saktong 25..(???)wat angela gave me caught me by surprise..(weee..ang cute!!!)kawaii!!!hahaha...but wat hersh gave me was...sana iba nlng kulay..bkit PINK!!!ok lng kung light pink..pero NEON PINK ballpen...cute nmn ng bunny..poblema nga lng..PINK BUNNY!?!well...thnx hersh!i really appreciate ur efforts of making me bcome a girl..pero tomboy aku..d aku babae..hehehe XD pero oks lng!kc pede parin gamitin 'tong ballpen n toh!somehow...(sana black nlng or dark blue...those r my favorite colors..weird noh!haha...BLACK BUNNY?!?nyek...)

Dec.29,2005 "No connection"
Nawalan kmi ng internet for how many days?hahaha...d bale..balik ulit ung internet nmin..may cra s dsl nmin e..for some reason..haha...d ako matutulog ngayon...onga pala noh..d rin ako makatulog kanina..hehe..i was rolling ang rolling s kama for 10 hrs hanggang sumikat n ang araw..then i rested my eyes nlng and tried to sleep again..pero d talaga kaya..at ngayon..d ako matutulog..kc pupunta kmi s baguio!!!hehe...pupunta kmi mamayang mga 2 o'clock at uuwi kmi nang hating gabi...*shrugs* well anyways...bkit kaya d parin ako naaantok after staying up for more than 35 hrs..nah..haha...mamaya nlng s kotse tsaka ako matutulog ulit!hahaha...la n me pera...*cries*waaa...haha...oks lng..manlilimos nlng ako!haha...

haba b ng post ko?mukhang ndi ah!haha...ok lng...
happy new year nlng s lahat!!!weee...haha...may new years resolution n b kayo?!?hahaha...ciao XD

Gosh..I Am So DEAD!!!

2005-12-22T12:22:00.000+08:00

naku..pupunta c vic mamaya...after our long 'no communication' session..bcuz of some of my mournings and some of her nakakabanas n ugali..pupunta n cya...as in..napilit ko cya..una dinahilan ko may bagong building s school n sobrang grande ang pagkagawa (which made her want to see it so much)..but then,philip told me n d n raw kelangan pumasok ngayon,kc wala n raw pala(???)...well...at least i get to see her,even though she ended our so called 'best friend' relationship dahil imposible n raw talaga n magkita kmi and there is no way that we can communicate while i m busy as an SJ student and while she is bc with some other things that she wants to do (ex: reading manga, watching anime, watching unbelievable shows, naglalakwatsa, napping, etc...) well..at least we r still frnds dba?well,s isip ko lng ata un...she is sometimes colder to me than her usual self for an 'i dnt know' reason...malay...umiba n cya e..lumipat lng cya naging iba n ugali nya..i prefer the old vic...lahat nmn ng lumilipat ng school umiiba ang ugali e...shux..i wanna back out yet afraid to back out..gosh...i wanna back out kc baka d ko p cya kaya harapin..im afraid bcuz this might b the one last time that i can get to see her again in my whole entire life :( naku..anung gagawin ko... :((

uuuggghhh...

2005-11-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

UUUuuuggggggggghhhhhhhhh....I WANNA DIE!!!

Bulok Na Me!!! waaaa...

2005-11-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

waaaaa....bulok n me badminton...waaaa...d ako marunong magbadminton s mababang lugar...waaa...tryouts kc cla e...so d kmi makagamit s free space...waaaa....kailangan ko babaan palo ko para d tumama s ceiling...then...waaa...natalo ako ng mga medling kids...waaaa..hehe...d bale..laro nlng me bukas..THURSDAY!!!free space!!!wohoo!!!no ceiling!!!yipeee!!!hehehe...

A Sad Bday...

2005-11-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

this is the saddest bday i ever had...sobra...arghhh...i wanna die.....and its because of the best friend i had for 6 years....
she promised that she would come to my bday...last month pa...but...ayaw nya umakyat papunta s 3rd floor and didnt even greet me...ok lng un,at least pumunta cya...pero,pumunta cya para lamang kunin ung manga n pinahiram nya s akin...well..i bcame sad,parang she doesnt even care...
I told her n umakyat cya...una nahihiya daw cya...then...nainis cya..sbi nya ibalik ko n daw ung manga n pinahiram nya s akin and aalis n cya,bilisan ko daw...
so i was forced to run to her car s churchyard...i left my friends that were there for me para s okasyon n ito...nung nabigay ko n s kanya..sbi nya bye...un lng...maybe i was expecting too much...really....
then..umakyat n ako...tumakbo ako...well...i wanna cry....umalis n din c hersh at mike,cnt blame them,they told me nmn n madali lng cla e,kc naghihintay n sundo ni hersh,and may tutor p c mike...ok lng s kanila,kc i didnt expect anything nmn e...
the whole november...i was just excited to see vic..vic vic vic...she is the only 1 tht i expected and really wanted to come...ok lng n d pumunta ang iba..ok lng n walang pakialam ang lhat s araw n ito....wag lng cya......
she didnt forget..i knw tht...pero its sad for me talaga...ang dramatic ko no!pero...its me...haaaaaaaaay....
buti naubos din ung pizza,i just gave it to people everywhere tht i see nlng..cuz umalis n clang lahat...
arghhh...thnx ahya earvin for the gift,i really appreciate it...thnx din mommy and atsi tiffany for coming,ur presence is enough n...ahya mervs and ahya doms,alam kong busy kayo,but thnx for coming anyway...angelita,thnx for being there...hersh & mike,thnx for being there and being the best friends any1 could b to me...vic,i appreciate n pumunta ka..pero sana man lng u went up kahit sandali lng....
well...thts all i can say....

Malay...

2005-11-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

I feel sad kanina...d ko alam kung bkit..but im always sad so wadahek...im feeling lonely for no reason as usual...lagi nmn e....
I slept at around 1am so the whole day kanina...im yawning and yawning...memorize me..pero la pumapasok s utak ko e...haaaaaay...
well...nagising lng ako ung magdidismissal n...cuz nkita ko ung top 5 s class nmin...well...nagising ako cuz..I AM 5TH S CLASS IN MATH!!!wahaha...a dream come true...minsan lng kc ako talaga nag-aaral ng math cuz its ec e..but nung 2nd quarter,i read the nbk more..so now i am rank 5 in math together with Erika...hehehe...its m first time talaga to have something tht is to b proud of..cnt bliv it myself cuz may bagsak n ako s chinese,top 5 p ako s isang subject...so masaya ako..as in smile here smile there...hehe
nung dimissal n...i told hersh n top 5 ako..showing her n im happy...well,nainis cya cuz masyado daw akong proud s sarili ko...im just masaya..its my 1st time e...pero i didnt realize n ginagawa ko pala ung isa s mga bagay n ayaw n ayaw kong gawin..ang magpainggit...my pure intension was to share my joy,kala ko nmn magiging happy din cya like me...pero hindi e...nainis p cya s akin...
she told me n i always show my grades to her pag mataas grades ko...do i really?all i remember is pag may grade akong mas mataas s ibang tao,i hide it...ayaw kong sabihin grade ko kc i knw wat they would feel...ganun kmi ni vic dalawa dati p...
nagtataka nga c erika,arthur and judd kung bkit kung may mas mataas n grade ako..i dnt let them see it...sbi ni arthur,"pag may grade k n mas mataas,ipagyabang mo!kc rare lng to n mangyari s ating mga ordinary students n d nerds"...my retort was,"do u knw wat others would feel pag nagyabang k s kanila n mas mataas k s kanila?"...
kung meron mang nakakapancn,twing may nagtatanong s akin ng grade,i ask their grade first..u knw y?kc pag mas mataas grade ko,d ko sasabihin unless they really wanna knw...
un nga din daw pinagtataka ni erika e...
so now,im gulat wit wat she said...well...from now on..i will try and not to tell her my achievements anymore...im never gonna tell her my grade no matter kung pasa ako o bagsak...i wont tell her abt it anymore...
hersh...baka binabasa mo to...well..this blog is just my point of view...ok lng kung umangal k(as usual)...do u knw tht u complain and complain abt everything....sori a...no offense po...pero its just my point of view...POV ko lng nmn to,walang kwenta mga POV ko dba?its nonsense and 'corny' as u say...but its me...i get depressed so easily hersh...sori kung ganyan ako...if u dnt wanna knw my POV,bkit k prin pumupunta dto s blog ko...then pag nabasa mo n to...oh no...aangal k uli...sori uli...its my POV and u cnt change the way i view of life...
ayaw mo magsabi ako ng prob sayo...so i wnt tell u any of my problems...ayaw mo sabihin ko grade ko sayo...i will never tell u anthing abt my achievements and grades ever again...i promise tht i will try hard to do wat i hav just said...para d k n mainis s akin...
bahala na...nukas pala bday ko...im not excited anymore..honestly..naubos n ung excitement ko and im back to solitude...perfect bday gift if u r my frnd:ur presence...un lng talaga...

My First Outreach

2005-11-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

wow...my very 1st outreach..hehe...and..8 lng kmi...
well..it was fun anyways..for me..haha
una palang knina s umaga hinahanap n nmin ung kotse...then..isuzu!!!nothing special...nung mga 7:30 umalis n kmi then s kotse puro chit chat nlng kmi...
Nandyan c Ahya Paul,Therese,Kevin Ang,Jules,Herschelle,ME!!!then ms. majul and miss paronda...then c mrs. ramos...and the driver of course...nothing special...
ms. paronda told us n mga 15 yrs old to 20+ ung tuturuan nmin...well..gulat kmi ni hersh konti but we got over it...hehe...
but then c kevin naglabas ng pagkain..wow..ang dami...shux sobra...maraming hamburgers,spagetti,cookies(4 n plastic ata un e),juice(grapes,orange,mango,u name it!!!),milk,chocolate,candy,pringles,picnic,ano pa ba..ang dami!!!
open kmi 1 by 1...wow..sobrang damibuong bag ni kevin puno ng ilang papers,1 or 2 notebooks,pencil,then...lahat food na!!!hahaha...buti may pagkain cla..hehe...i 4got mine kc e...and i didnt eat breakfast kc 6:15 ako ginising and i dnt have time to even eat...every labas nya ng pagkain namamangha kami..sbi nmin..wow,next time pag magtitrip kmi isasama nmin ikaw para may isang maleta kmi ng pagkain!!!hehe...
sbi ni paronda mga integers,polynomials and such ung ituturo nmin...mga pang1st yr din...so nagulat kmi..hehe
when we got there,a woman told us n change of schedule n...d n raw mga bata ung tuturuan..mga ages 20+ to 60+...shux..what the-...un ung nasa isip ko...waaaaaa
mga 10 cla or more..so 1 on 1 and 2 on 1 turo nmin...hehe...c hersh at ako may tig-iisang tuturuan...c hersh naiinis s akin twing cnsbi ko n wag n kmi sabay magturo,mas ec pag isa isa lng...ayaw ni hersh...so there i am teaching 2 maids and her sitting around..buti sbi ni paronda gawa daw ng exercises para s kanila...so hersh made the exercises..and i did the teaching...shux..ung isa ang bilis matuto..ung isa ang bagal and cnt keep up..kya ang hirap...tinuturuan ko nanga ng mabagal,c hersh pinamamadali ako,well,wat do i do wit some1 who cnt keep up but still says she understands...haaaaay...pero mabait nmn cla..hehe..khit mas matanda cla s amin..maybe 2 times our age..hehe...pero gus2 talaga nla matuto...im so proud of my handy work pagtapos cla turuan..haha..as always..the ever proud sharmaine!!!
pagtapos nun nagpapicture kmi...ung isa si josephine..ung isa si solidad..hehe
sobrang enthusiastic ni josephine matuto..hehe,im so proud of her..hehe..she calls me ate then nag'po' pa cya s akin,kaya nakakahiya..pero shux,im so proud of her..again..the ever proud sharmaine..hehe
c ahya paul at therese nagturo na geometry..c kevin nagturo ng english,c jules nagturo ng basics ng math s isang tao..ung fractions..addition,subtraction,division,multiplication...ganun..then MDAS rule..mga ganun..hehe...sobrang enthusiastic nla,nakakapag'proud' talaga..haha
pagtapos nun nagpicture taking kmi..hehe...picture picture..nung aalis n kmi...sbi ni mrs ramos picture daw kmi s bandang merong mga gumagawa ng door mat..hehe..kc kailangan daw nya 4 documentation...
punta kmi doon...wow..pagsabi n taga-SJCS lapit agad mga tao..smile cla..ang saya nla..well..they thought ata n gagawa din kmi ng door mat e..sayang..gus2 ko p nmn matuto..looks interesting kc e..hehe..picture here..picture there...kunwari daw natututo kmi..hehe...
there..i saw children...nakita ko ung bata..im trying to make him smile..well..he looks like he is wondering kung bkit ako ganun..haha..when i am off to touch him..biglang..UMIYAK!!!shit,lagot!!!waaaaa....natakot s akin....waaaaaa...then may isa pang batang lalaki...hehe...una lumapit s mama nya,which is in front of me...well..he looked at me with his small height..syempre nakatingin pataas..i said hi..careful not to make a child cry again...hehe...i made funny faces and such...tumakbo...shux..TINAKBUHAN AKO!!!grrrr....tawanan cla ms paronda,mrs ramos,hersh at c jules..la c kevin,pokla,at therese kc nagpipicture cla s loob...haha...bigla nlng may sumisigaw n ''BATA!!!BATA!!!'' tumingin ako...then i saw the child tht ran away from me smiling sheepishly then giggled and then hid his face on his father's lap..he looks flattered...
wa?i raised an eyebrow...then..tumingin nnmn ako s door mat n ginagawa nla in front of us...then may sumigaw uli..''BATA!!!BATA!!!'' tumingin ako...again..he smiled sheepishly and flattered then hid his face on his father's lap...ok,tht was weird.....again..wa?hahaha...
then tingin ako uli s door mat making then sumgaw cya uli ng "BATA!!!BATA!!!" this time,i nudged hersh and told her the kid was calling me to tell her tht the kid doesnt hate me..well..sbi ni hersh,"ano k b nmn,sbi nya 'bata',d k n bata no!tanda mo n e"...so d n ako tumingin s bata...
then his father said,"d nmn cya bata e,ate cya e"...then,u knw wat happened?"ATE!!!ATE!!!" tumingin ako..the same thing uli ginawa nya..smile and hide his face...this is so humiliating...wat the heck did i do to the child???waaaaaa....hahaha
haha...at least may small little frnd n ako..hehe..another frnd on my frnds list!!!
after the picture taking...aalis n kmi..hehe...mausok..hinihika ako..oh shit..lagot..i told nobody about it nlng...but shux..d lng hika...inallergy p ako!!!shit...oh no...waaa...so i hurried away nlng ung aalis n,nauna ako maglakad...well..i saw the kid again waving so enthusiastically at me...haha...sbi ko bye bye...flattered uli cya then hid on his father's lap...i smiled at him too then umalis n ako...
nung nasa car...my breathing began to take it's normal pace...WOOOHOOOO!!!!heheeh....then..d allergy thing..i took some water at pinahid ko without anyone noticing..hehe
nung pauwi n kmi...may natira pang spagetti..but we have to eat so we stopped s isang karinderia...hehe
c hersh...1st time makapunta s karinderia..haha..but..nadiri cya...she told me dirty here and dirty there..nakakalungkot...humingi p cya ng tissue paper to wipe her seat and the table...parang nakaka-..nakaka-...malay....im just sad by the way she is acting...
haha..inom softdrinks..coke...bkit coke..lasang sugar ung coke e...i prefer sprite but the coke is beside me n so...nah...cnt complain cuz its for free...tubig nlng sana...(mauubos n water ko e...)
kevin ate the spagetti n dinidirian n nmin cuz un ata ung lunch nya e...baka kc panis n..hehe
then we got back to the car...haha...usap usap kmi...ms majul..ms paronda...mga stuff about movies..books..photography and such...hehe..
then we stopped by s may bandang bentahan ng mais...haha...ang mura ng mais doon!!!10 pesos jap sweet corn..5 pesos ordinary corn..2 pesos ung d p luto!!!wow...hehe..bili ako ng 4 muna...kming tatlo lng ni mrs ramos at miss majul ung lumabas e,c paronda antok n daw,kya nagpabili nlng...well,4 jap sweet corn...pumunta ako s car..haha..i offered them..ayaw nla..they said they were full..haha..im so persuasive talaga...hanggang kumulang at bumili p ako ng 5..kya lahat kmi s car..JAPANESE SWEET CORN!!!hahaha...naputol ata ung goma s braces ni kevin e...hehe...
ang hirap ipersuade c jules..haha..technic:repeat and repeat 'japanese sweet corn,the delicious sweetness of the blah blah blah'haha..he accepted it at the end...
well..usap usap and such hanggang umabot s maynila...then...nagdodrwing c kevin..ang ganda...nakita ni miss paronda then she asked him to draw her..gandahan daw!!!wahahahahaa
pag nakitanyo ung drawing u will surely laugh..sbi nila d raw kamukha ni miss paronda..pero s tingin ko may pagkahawig din un e..galing nya talaga..cuz i cnt draw better..
haha..nahulog pala ni therese ung camera ni pokla!!!hahaha...gulat c ahya then nasurprise then nag-alala s camera nya..haha
dala nya i-pod nya,camera and cellphone..magkakamukha..hehe
then therese..ung umaga hinahanap ko c atsi tiffany..cnt find her so d ko natapos ung flag..bukas ill recieve shoutings for sure...ung nasa kotse n kmi...i saw her holding something...something..something very very very_____...waaaa...the thread..hawak nya..the white thread..then i asked her..ikaw b ung kapatid ni atsi tiffany?she said yes...shux..hawak nya n ang sinulid pero d ko nmn magagamit..sayang..thnx nlng atsi tiff...
pinicturan nmin ni ahya paul ung drawing ni kevin..cya camera..ako cellphone..haha..kakatawa..parang ung tabon men n miss paronda..pero magaling parin ung pagkagawa nya...
yan..nasa school n kmi...hehehe..i brought my badminton!!!wohoo...we played hanggang 6 ng shob ko and a few others n d ko kilala pero pinahiram ko...
kakainis c sharlene...ayaw nya ipahiram ung racket nya..grrrrrrrr....sbi nya masyado n daw akong mabait...bkit daw ako magpapahiram s mga taong d ko kilala..well..they also need to have fun right?i mean..naghihintay ung mga ibang bata ng mga 4th yr students and they r so bored stuck in the school waiting for their atsis and ahyas...wawa nmn...pinahiram ko nlng...
ung isa..c jelvin..kilala ko pala cya..oooops..hehe..d ko cya nakilala e..my eye sight sucks...we played badminton...ok lng nmn cya...haha..wala akong glasses e..so we r even..well..me slightly leading...haha..wala n akong makita so i got my glasses...nung naglaro kmi nilampaso ko cya..haha..he said madaya daw..kc bkit p daw ako magsusuot ng glasses..tuloy..d cya makakeep up..sorry..la akong makita s dilim e...
well..we went home when the 4th yr students arrived..haha...saya n din un!!!pag-uwi s bahay..bagsak s kama and parang ni-knock-out!!!hahaha...sakit ulo ko dun...
nakonsyensya ako bigla...kc ung umaga nagwawala kmi ni hersh..as in panic...then ahya mervs came..well..he told us tht he wants to play badminton pero wala daw cya makakalaro..umalis daw kc ung kasama nya twing thursday...well..mas gus2 kong magbadminton..if he only knws..i craved to play so much..pero may outreach p e so i stopped my craving...well..umalis din cya then i felt guilty..sana sumama nlng cya s outreach..para may kasama din cya..
well...i txted him nlng..sori ako s kanya cuz d nmin ni hersh cya pede samahan e...im really really guilty...
well...lapit n daw bday ko...well..nung November 5 excited ako n malapit n bday ko..but now..nawala n ung excitement..its dull n...kya laging dull bday ko,kc naubos n ung saya...haha...excited ako kc i will b declared 14 then..I WILL SEE VICTORIA!!!wohooooo!!!!!yipee!!!hehe...miss ko n cya e...haha...
well..thts all for now..haba no!sori....

Ouchies...

2005-11-10T13:45:00.000+08:00

sakit...grrrr...sarap sakalin ung batang un,tumataas nanaman ang anger intent ko..grrrrr....
laro kmi ng laro ng badminton knina e,mga 9:30 hanggang 11:00 tpos napagod n ako,hehe..nood ako kila mike at hersh playing here and there malapit s CAT cuz umuulan,d makalaro ng mabuti...and im also bored n e..hehe
well,dala ko ung racket ko,pinatong ko s sahig,actually..2 rackets and 3 shuttlecocks resting on the floor beside me...until a kid approached me..hehe..a cute 2nd grader n too tall for her own age,weeeiiiirrddd....
sbi nya laro daw kmi,cnt refuse her,d ako snob,kakaawa nmn ung bata e,she just wants to play,she is just an innocent kid...so...kahit pagod maglalaro parin...
then...we played..sa gilid nla mike..i was bored..yeah..hell bored with the kid...sbi ni hersh kawawa nmn ung bata,wag o raw papaluin ng mataas...hininaan ko nlng ng sobra sobra..d umabot s bata...hmmm...kakaawa,she pouted at me...hehe..cnt resist children tht are so so so so cute...so i tried to play with her more lively n sure ko n mahihit nya....
she keeps hitting it to the side,sa may ulan...sbi ko wag nya ihihit doon,ayaw makinig...grrrr...i told her baka matamaan ako s poste...she just nodded and still...papunta prin s side...grrrr...hinabol ko,nahihit o nmn...cnt take tht feeling away n mauuntog ako...lakas 6th sense ko e..lagi pag may kutob ako talagang nangyayari,pero kapag cnb ko n may kutob ako it bcomes false...so...i just kept playing and telling her to stop hitting on the side...she doesnt listen..really...
well..hinabol ko ung shuttlecock n nahit nya papunta s side as usual...pero..nakaharang ang poste...ayan..BANG!!!ouch!sakit...i wanna cry really,my jaw hurts like hell...parang may nadislocate n bone or nagcrack n bone...shux...my ice became a little watery but i wiped it away when im sure hersh wont notice...i tried to be humoruos so she wont worry much..but shux..ang sakit...
buti dumating c ivan..my cousin(fake cousin,but we are related by family means but not by blood)...lifesaver to escape.i asked him to play with the kid and gave him my racket...bahala muna cya...takbo ako here and there to ease the pain ::rub-rub::it eased a bit but shux ang sakit...walk ako nang walk hanggang umabot ako kay hersh while rubbing...
hersh approached me and told me to go to the clinic..oo nga ano,bkit d ko naisip un?hehe...so nung nasa clinic ako,hihingi ako ng ice..kakahiya kc nandyan c father when i said na numpog ako s poste...haha...they gave me a look tht says "r u stupid or wat?"..haha...so ashamed..gus2 ko n patayin ung bata...grrrrr....
ice really helped..dumating din c hersh s clinic..hehe...pero sbi ko okay lng ako...i told her n pwede n cya umalis,not to worry...haha..kita nya ung ice then dinikit nya ung cheek nya s other side ng bottle of ice...sbi nya "wow sarap ang lamig"haha...sarap nga ng ice!after a few minutes nung d n masyadong masakit,umalis n ako s clinic...hehe...
pagbalik ko..the kid doesnt want to listen to a word i say..i ask her her name...parng d nya ako narinig...grrr...she ignored me after wat she did...ggggrrrrrrrrrrrr....d nga cya ung nag-umpog s akin pero cya ung dahilan...wow...i feel like strangling her to death at tht moment...may humiram p ng racket ko ng walang paalam and nung natapos n ang bata maglaro...tinapon ang racket s sahig...grrrrrr..........
haha...bad day....wala nangang pain ngayon but i would NEVER forget this s buhay ko...grrrrrrr................

!!!ENCHANTED KINGDOM!!!

2005-11-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

hahaha..we just got home from ENCHANTED KINGDOM!!!shux..so tired..ang saya grabe
well,3 lng kaming ride all u can e..hehe(c ahya..sharlene..AND ME!)
hehe..una sakay kami s Rio Grande na ride..shux talaga,basang basa ako pagtapos nun!well,umupo lang namn ako s dinadaluyan ng tubig..hahaha..nabasa p cellphone ko!buti d ncra..
then..ROLLER COASTER!!!haha..hinanap p nmin un!un ung pinakamasaya!!!pwede k sumigaw ng sumigaw..stress release sobra..grabe..sarap isigaw ang lahat ng galit mo..lahat ng nasa loob mo..all gone..nakakahilo nga lang..hehe
then..FERRIS WHEEL!hay..natakot ako doon,believe it or not..hehe..open air kc e..and..umuuga ung sakyanan nmin..and the worst of all..kasama ko c ahya,the disaster,my 200+ pound brother..thats the reason kya ako natakot..umuuga sobra s slight movements ni ahya..nakakatakot..para ba namang mccra na ung ferris wheel..shux talaga..nakahug pa ako s poste(literally)..im so much afraid to fall..nakakakaba kc kasama ko c ahya ko..
then..VIKING!!!hahaha..nakatatlo ako nun no!ang sarap ding sumigaw..stress release din!hehe..kc c ahya natakot s roller coaster,so viking nalang...shux!ang sarap!!!sobrang lamig,ang ginaw doon no!sayang wala akong jacket..magkakasakit ata ako doon e..lamig sobra...
then..c ahya kc nagustuhan nya ung water bump car..haha..d ko alam kung ano tawag doon..hehe...kung kailan b namn kmi nxt..tsaka umulan..open air p!wow..magkakasakit talaga ako doon..pagtapos nun..lumakas ang ulan ang we have to find shade..5 times p ako nagmiss call s mom ko and no one answered..naninigas n ako s sobrang lamig..una s rio grande,basang basa ako,then with the cold air s enchanted..parang gus2 ko nang umuwi..pero sayang 500 e...
then..nung nahanap ko n parents ko..we drank coffee..wa..sarap..hot coffee..lamig kc e..
then..lakad lakad kmi..and..meron clang mga ghosts doon..halloween nga pala no..hehe..merong bampira..isang lalaki at isang babae..then mummy..and..headless ghost..ang rami sobra!natakot p c shara..hehe..ang cute talaga ni shara(shobe ko)!!!
well..sumakay kmi s bump car..nothing special..so boring...sana roller coaster nalang..
then merry go round para mapagbigyan ang mga bulilits(coughmgashobekocough)haaay..BORING...
then merong isang ride..kala ko kc aakyat ng sobrang taas ung ride n un habang umiikot..with just ropes..pano kya ako mahohold nun?so..ayaw ko..di ako sumabay..then nakita ko mababa lang nmn pala..sumakay na ako..hehe
sarap talaga doon!but.....GINIGINAW AKO!!!SOBRA!!!and no one knows..i just acted like its nothing..but..naninigas n ang paa ko s sobrang lamig.. ::shiver:: d nanga ako makalakad masyado e..well..nung nag merry go round kmi..Victoria texted..hinihingi nya ang number ni vance..sarap n talaga patayin ung gagong un e..kung pinatay ko n kaya c vance anu kaya gagawin ni vic s akin?so tempting n sakalin ung bansot n un!!!sobra!!!everytime i talk or chat to vic..lagi nalng vance,vance,vance,vance,vance..cnt she stop?naiinggit nanga ako kay vance e..sobra..sya lng kc pinapancn ni vic..kakainis!
well..nung 9:00 n..wow shux!!!FIREWORKS!!!ang ganda sobra..grabe..wow..laki talaga..all the colors nandun n!pinaghalo p!wow..ganda sobra...
well..nagutom n ako..hehe..d p kmi kumakain ng dinner nun e..mga 10:00 n kmi kumain nang nakabalik n kmi s maynila..haha..unforgettable sobra..

Cry..

2005-10-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

well..i cried today..embarassing no!im already 13 and going 14 in 19 days and im still off crying about a small matter....embarassing sobra...
haaaay..no use writting wat happened..ALAM KONG BINABASA MO TO SHARLENE AND IF U JUST KNOW HOW MUCH I WANNA KILL U!!!U R SO DEAD MEAT!!!I HATE U TO HELL!!!
sharlene=my sister
kakainis na talaga kayo!!!arghhhh...

Mango Pudding

2005-10-31T17:29:00.000+08:00

Pumunta kmi s Lord Stow's Bakery tapos kumain kmi..then... i saw something..its..its a..a..a..a mango pudding.hehe..its looks delicious..it looks so creamy..it looks so tasty..well,i just had to have it..hehe..
Nung nakuha ko na..I tasted it..my reaction was..NAKAKASUKA!!!yuck,eww,anung gagawin ko s pudding n to?
hmmm...I tricked my sisters into eating it..I told them its VERY delicious and its THE CHANCE OF A LIFETIME!!!haha..they took a bite and moved away....figures..
well..i pretended na masarap un..i ate it acting that its the best pudding ever!wow..best actress talaga..my sisters look at me like i was crazy and told me n baka may sira ang taste buds ko..haha..im pretending damnit!
well..every bite that i took made my stomach twist..nakakasuka grabe..but if my parents knew that im wasting precious food..well..u knw wat happens..hehe
I ate it until i bit the last bite..wow..galing ko.. ::cheer!!!::
Paglabas namin sa bakery..my stomach grumbled..is it something i ate?hell yeah!!!the pudding!!!never n ako bibili nun!lasang bear brand n linagyan ng super over riped n mango and was frozen for a decade and now melted to taste like that..nakakasuka sobra!!!
LESSON:never,i mean NEVER,EVER buy something that u just THINK that tastes good..

Best Friend?maybe not...

2005-10-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

ang weird ko ngayon..haha..my problems r adding up to a mountain of piles and its veeeerryy unusual n..I AM IN MY BEST MOOD EVER!!!haha..sakit ulo ko and the first thing that i thought is..Y THE HECK WOULD I CARE!ang weird..hehe..then i really really wanna sleep but i cant bcuz the lights r still on and my sibs r wrecking the house and shouting everywhere..and heck..I DONT EVEN CARE!so now im here using the pc kc walang assignment..and so bored..but heck..WHO CARES!?!
and now..i realize kung bkit pagtapos ko sabihin ang problema ko kay ahya mervs,i feel a lot better..hehe..kc,twing may problema ako,mas malaki problema nya and i feel that my problem is just a piece of crap compared to his kaya i feel a lot better!hahaha..weird noh!kya pala twing nagsasabi ako ng problem kay hersh i dont feel much better kc..ANG SAYA NG BUHAY NYA!!!POPULAR..SO SO MANY FRIENDS..SOBRANG NAAAPRECIATE NG TAO..MAYAMAN..WALANG PROBLEMA SA BUHAY..MATALINO..LAHAT MERON NA CYA!!!WALA CYANG PROBLEMA!!!ALWAYS SO HAPPY!!!and it doesnt make me feel better n she has nothing to worry at all habang ako ay namumublema..haha..sarap kc may karamay n isang tao na may problema rin..kc..kapareho kayo ng mood..haha..walang mangugulo..walng nakakadisrupt ng moment of thinking ng problema..haaaaaaay...kung nagkaproblema kaya c hersh..kakayanin kaya nya yan ng mag-isa?i very well know that i am always there 4 her..but......she wont let me enter her world..she keeps things away from me..alam ko lang s kanya pangalan nya..bahay nya..number nya..section nya..all the basic stuffs to knw about ur frnd..i feel n d talaga kmi ang bst frnds tht everyone views us from far way..its like she lets people other than myself to enter her world..and she keeps everything away from me..ung masaya lang s kanya..SHE UNINTENTIONALLY BLURTS OUT HER SECRETS!!!hahaha...but its just by accidents..too many accidents perhaps..well,it pretty much means that she really doesnt want me to b even there by her side..and it hurts me so much..she wants to leave me..and she denies it all the time..maybe she just cnt describe the gut feeling that she has whenever she is with me..who am i anyway?wat right do i have to enter her world?well..BEST FRIENDS lng naman kmi dba?wats a best friend if u treat other friends with more care than ur original best friend..maybe its all just for show..para lang maipakita sa mundo na may best friend cya kahit s kalooblooban ng puso nya ay hindi naman talaga...sure,magkasama kami lagi..but..its all for companionship..and nothing more...
haaaay..sumobra ata a..hmm..im just hurt inside...

What Happened?

2005-10-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

I really really don't feel like myself today..I don't even know what happened..it's like i'm a whole new different person yet i'm still the same..i don't feel comfortable being with anyone for the matter, or even holding anything..i feel that i will lose everything in a matter of seconds yet i still allow myself to let go of them..i dont know if i'm still the sane person that i know that i am and i don't even know why..it's like everything is falling appart, yet again..parang hindi...di ko maintindihan ang sarili ko ngayon and i am not in the mood to go up and annoy people right now..sana maayos ko tong nangyayari sa akin na hindi ko man lang alam kung bakit nangyayari..bkit kaya?i feel na everyone is taking everything yet i allow them to take it without regret and i feel na dahan dahang mawawala ang lahat ng ngayong akin n sa susunod ay magiging sa kanila na...pati friends ko may aangkin nang iba..mga gamit ko nakukuha na ng iba..the trust people have on me is slowly na nawawala and next time, they won't even give a damn about my existence..then i would be alone while nagpapakasaya ang lahat ng taong kumuha ng mga akala ko na nasa akin..nobody else that i know of feels this way, i think...but..at least may nakakaintindi man lang ba ng nararamdaman ko?my best friends are slowly finding people na mas mapahahalagahan nla and it makes me feels so worthless..worthless naman ako talaga dba?kaya maraming nagagalit sa akin because of my worthlessness..maybe i am not even worthy to live the life that i am living right now kaya nawawala ang lahat slowly..but i still let it happen..and without regret..is it really necessary?when i let go of everything may matitira p b s akin?well..nobody really cares how i feel..except me..pero kung dahn dahan akong maging selfless baka talagang mawala na ang lahat sa akin..do i even give a damn?i think i should just let things happen the way they are going and mawala na ang lahat sa akin at okay lang..when i think i dont deserve living the life that i have..baka talagang i don't deserve anything..other people deserve better than having me as a friend, because i am worth nothing but a piece of trash..im just garbage..thats what everyone thinks naman dba?i am also starting to feel that way too..and i think its true..kc wala naman talaga akong kwenta..i'm just a burden..thats the way they treat me..a burden..maybe i should just get used to it..being a burden is not bad..right?im just a burden...and the next thing i know..wala na ang lahat sa akin...

Ako Nalang Lagi E...

2005-10-20T18:00:00.000+08:00

bakit lagi nlang ako?ako nanaman may kasalanan...lagi nalang e..d namn ako ung nakasira ng Eye Trek ..ung parang glasses na makapal then makakanood ka na..ako raw nanaman may kasalanan...
Nung isang araw kc..i saw my little sis, shara, nanonood sa eye trek..pinagsabihan ko kung bkit nya ginagalaw un..sabi nya pinayagan cya ni mommy..tinanong ko sa mama ko..she said yes..well..pinabayaan ko nalang..i wanna sleep na sa sobrang puyat ko and headache..well..until nahulog nya..nahila nya ung kabyo then ung wire nahila ung nagmomonitor sa eye trek..nagwala ako..i told it to my mother..then she told me wag nalang sabihin sa papa ko..
Ngayon namn..may ncra doon sa eye trek ung nahila nya at nahulog..i blurted out na nahulog ni shara..then tanong ng papa ko kung bkit nya ginagalaw..i told my father na pinayagan raw cya..sbi ni daddy hindi nya pinayagan shobe ko..then tumingin ako sa mama ko..she looks so inocent and told my father na wala cyang alam s bagay na yan..WOW!!!AND SHE TOLD ME NA PINAYAGAN NYA A!!!i simply played along hanggang s ako ang nsisi..bkit raw ako naniniwala sa bata..he asked me if i was stupid..yeah right..stupid daw..then i told my father na si shara nasa likod lang ni mommy ung nanonood cya..then my mother defended herself again with another lie..sbi nya d nya alam na nanonood c shara..i glared at her..she doesnt seem affected at all...then sbi nya wala raw cyang kinalaman dyan..haaaaay..ako nanaman may kasalanan..bkit raw d ko tinanong mama ko..I ASKED HER AND SHE SAID YES DAMNIT!!!pero i protected her..then nagalit pa cya s akin...ako nanga ang nagtanggol..ako pa may kasalanan..then tanong ng papa ko kung cno ang kumabit ng saksakan..sabi ko c ahya..then tinawag c ahya..he told him na cnbhan lang raw cya na iopen..haaay..no one can blame him..my father knws that he is stupid..well...ako na may kasalanan..kahit hindi nmn talaga..WALA MAN LANG BANG NAKOKONSYENSYA SA MUNDONG ITO!!!AKO NANAMAN ANG PINAPAGALITAN!!!WALA AKONG KASALANAN AND I AM JUST HAVING THE WORST HEADACHE EVER AND THEY ALL POINT THE MISTAKE TO ME!!!MGA WALANG HIYA!MGA WALANG KONSYENSYA!MAY GANA PA KAYONG MAGALIT SA AKIN,AKO NANGA UMANGKIN NG KASALANAN E!!!MGA BWISIT!!!MGA WALANG KWENTA!!!GO TO HELL!!!

Ano Nga Ba...

2005-10-19T20:34:00.000+08:00

haaaaay...anu nga b..
wow..my father wants me to be a ......a ............................ BRAIN SURGEON!!!haaaaay..d ko kaya un..expectations talaga..nakakainis..
I just told him n isa s ma choices ko medicine..then bigle nalang nya ininsist s akin un..haaaaay
well..may 4 akong choices e..mga gus2 ko..teka..cguro chef..teacher..doctor..or lawyer..
Chef kc dati pa ako naiinspire s angkong ko..galing nya luto!tapos when he died he passed it on to my father..then parang gus2 ko n rin magluto..then parang i wanna b a chef n..haaaay..
Teacher..hey..do u know the feeling of satisfaction pag may isang matter n hindi pa nalalaman ng isang tao o hindi ng tao maintindihan n naturo mo bigla s kanya..sarap feeling..i feel so much satisfied after teaching people n gus2ng matuto..sarap talaga ung feeling..pag alam nyo lang..
Doctor..well..kc mama ko may ikwinento dati s akin..may isang doctor cyang kaibigan..idol talaga..lhat ng check ups and etc..LIBRE!!!he wants to help people n d kaya magpagamot..mga gus2ng malaman ang kanilang mga sakit..mahal n kc magpacheck up ngayon e..pag alam nyang d makakabayad ang pasyente dahil mahirap ang tao..libre nalang daw..galing nya no!astig talaga!people looked up to him..ako rin e,i always looked up to him..mga mahihirap imbis n d magbayad nagdadala nalang ng mag gamit o pagkain na makakaya nila to say thanks..ang bait kc e..dba pag natulungan ka ng isang tao gus2 mo cya pasalamatan..rami tao binibisita cya,marami cyang friends from the lower class..and masaya..tanong ko sa mama ko..how could he make a living kung libre lang ang lahat ng paggagamot nya..my mother told me na sa mga mayayaman lang cya bumabawi..sa mga operations and stuff..tinataasa nya ung pagsingil..kc magaling n doktor cya e..sobrang talented s paggagamot..tapos libre pa ginagawa nya..galing talaga..im so much inspired s kanya..and my mother thinks n nccraan n cya ng ulo,cra talaga mama ko e..
Lawyer..well,believe it or not..im inspired kay......MR. DELARA!!!hahaha..galing nya magspeech..kala mo abogado..its like fighting for wats right..gus2 ko makipaglaban para s mga walang kasalanan at s mga taong kailangan ng hustisya..la n atang hustisya s mundong ito e...im so tempted n maging lawyer..kaso shobs o maglalaw e...
wow..nasabi ko n kung bkit naguguluhan ako kung saan pipiliin..and ung cnb ko s parents ko un..my father told me to take medicine instead..dahilan nya magiging tagaluto nalang raw ako s bahay pag chef kinuha ko..teacher nakuha na ni stephanie..law nakuha na ni sharlene..e pano n me?medicine nlang raw..sabi ko ano kaya s medicine kukunin ko..then he told me to be a..a..a.......BRAIN SURGEON!!!haaaay...i told him ayaw ko..sabi nya bahala raw ako s buhay ko..tapos nakonsyensya ako..ganun ginagawa nya lagi kaya nakukuha nya lagi gus2 nya pag ako kinakausap nya e..i told him pag-iisipan ko..then he started with his preachings uli n nakakabagok ng ulo..haaay...gus2 ko gumaya s doctor na un..pero d nmn lhat libre..bababaan ko nlng preso s mga mas mahihirap..hehe..sama ko no!!!pero really..im so much inspired s kanya..gus2 ko gumaya...

What The Heck..

2005-10-18T11:10:00.000+08:00

wow..chinese d ko natapos test knina..cguro 50 na ako..last page blanko..walang sagot,nada!wow..lagot na ako..so dead..tepok..putik talaga..2 pa ako kahapon natapos mag-aral and kinalabasan 50..shux talaga...
Kanina pauwi na ako..bigla nalang may umumpog sa akin..tumingin ako,nakatingin cya s akin..isip ko,bahala na,pabayaan ko nalang,baka namn d nya cnasadya..then tuloy ako lakad..binangga ako uli..tingin ako uli,then tingin cya uli..wat da heck..pinabayaan ko uli..ayan nanaman..inumpug ako uli..lakas no!then tumingin ako,nakatingin cya..lumayo ako konti and lumapit kay hersh and mike..aba..inumpug ako uli..ginawa ko,nagpaiwan ako konti at nagbagal,nagdahan-dahan din c hersh kasama ko..then nasa harap na cya..kaso..lumingon at tumingin uli s akin..weird..nakakakilabot.........naalala ko,cya un s florante at laura,isa s mga kontrabida..malay ko kung bkit ako binangga nang binangga..baka galit s akin..anu b nmn uli ang ginawa ko...

Haha..The Starting of MY Bloggy..

2005-10-17T03:35:00.000+08:00

Wow..MAY BLOGGY NA AKO!!!
haha..magiging bloggy 'to nang puro problema..no one would even want to read this,pero oki lang!haha..